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I Work Outside the Home (and I like it that way)

I work outside the home

When we relocated to Columbia from Connecticut I had a new vision. I was giving up the morning rush of a working mom and going to immerse myself fully in my transitioning family. I would become the model supportive wife and pinterest-perfect mother. My days would be spent managing the house, teaching the kids, volunteering and engaging our family in outdoor and invigorating activities while I magically got the cooking, cleaning and laundry done. Oh, and playdates. Lot of playdates with my new found mom friends.

I was going to love it. Except I didn’t.

In retrospect, I failed because of the pressures I put on myself. If a meal was less than stellar, I wondered why I thought I could even attempt to cook and why I had wasted so much time of my day trying to even entertain the idea. Inevitably the house was a mess by the time my husband got home, and although he didn’t mind, I felt the need to present him with a list of all the things I had done that day in an attempt to justify my time. I was trapped in the house in the afternoons because if I dared travel more than one-tenth of a mile in the car, my daughter fell asleep and was up partying like a sorority girl waiting for last call at 2 a.m. I would make half of the bed and then throw in laundry, leaving the other half lonely and unattended for hours at a time. I was trying to teach my daughter her colors but she would shut down at the smell of anything remotely academic.

I was doing everything, but accomplishing nothing.

up and at em: 105 of 365

I’d make half the bed, then forget about it the rest of the day.

Then, one inclimate weather day, I went to my friend Abbey’s house. Our kids were playing inside and she asked if I wanted coffee or hot chocolate since it was 10 a.m. It was a snow day, so I decided to spice the hot chocolate up with a little Bailey’s. Why not? It was a “snow day” after all. As I sipped the hot chocolate I looked at her and said “oh my gosh, I am drinking Bailey’s at 10 in the morning and I’m totally fine with it. I need more structure, I have to go back to work.”

Hot Chocolate

Bailey’s in my hot chocolate? Don’t mind if I do!

I submitted my application to the local school district and began searching for daycares. I found the perfect setting for my daughter to get the structure and socialization she needed. I was offered a job a week later and began the process of transitioning my daughter to daycare. After a six month hiatus – I was going back to work. And, I was happy about it.

Here are four reasons why I am happily working outside the home:

Our schedule is set – even if it is crazy. We are all out of the house by 7 a.m. and I’m home just in time to get my son off the bus. It’s a full day with little time to sit and think, but my daughter is no longer up until the wee hours of the morning because of late afternoon naps. She’s engaged in socialization and play all day long, much more than she was getting from me. While our initial separation was difficult, she has come so far in a short amount of time at daycare.

My profession matters. Teaching makes me happier and more confident, and in turn, a better mother. I teach kids with emotional and behavior disorders – it’s not exactly an easy day. Many of these children come from hard places and have endured more in 11 years than I have in a lifetime. My kids have two parents who love them and support them. We will do our best to ensure that they will thrive in whatever path they choose. Most of my students do not. Every kid needs to feel loved, and for 6 hours a day I love them even when they are asking for it in the most unloveable of ways.

It’s a safety net. My family has experienced young and un-timely deaths leaving families in distress. By working and remaining current in my profession, I know that if anything should happen to my husband, I am in the best possible place to maintain a sense of consistency for my children. I realize that is an oddly-morbid way to view life, but sometimes you take away unpleasant lessons from devastating situations.

It works best for us. I work outside the home and our family functions better because of it. I do not desire to stay at home with my children. I will be judged for it, but I won’t apologize for it or be made to feel like a sub-par mother because of it. The best way for women to lift each other up is to support and respect each others decisions as we all do our best everyday for our kids.

Do you work outside the home? Why does it work best for you and your family?

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5 Responses to I Work Outside the Home (and I like it that way)

  1. Melanie April 4, 2015 at 7:38 am #

    My story is so similar to yours! Including trying to do the SAHM thing when we first relocated to Columbia. I spent almost 9 months at home, and I learned a lot of lessons during that time. But I am now back at work – even recently getting a promotion! It’s not easy to be a working mom (of 4 kids with a husband who is a minister – not exactly a 9-5). But I realized that it’s not easy being a SAHM, either. Being a mom is just tough! While there are trade offs, me working is best for our family for many of the same reasons it is for yours.

  2. Celeste April 20, 2015 at 10:02 pm #

    I struggled with my decision to stay home, for many of the same reasons. It does leave me feeling vulnerable, and it’s super chaotic and I am a student, not a teacher OMG. Every woman has to decide what is best for her own family, kids included but not all that matters. Parenting is a tough job regardless of other work outside the home. I am a photographer, so I’m blessed to work IN my home, while my son goes to school. He’s home with my two full day during the week and weekends. I had to compromise because 24/7 wasn’t working for me. And that’s just what works for us 🙂

  3. Bonnie September 30, 2015 at 11:22 am #

    I love your blog post. I am currently a stay at home mom. I can’t stand it. The only reason I’m home is because childcare is expensive. Next year when my youngest is in kindergarten full time, I will go get a part time job due to finances and needing to get my sanity back.

  4. Kristen January 26, 2018 at 6:11 pm #

    I can so relate to your post, and I really appreciate your honesty! I also stayed home briefly when we moved across the country, and I was drowning. It took me awhile to come to terms with my need to not be around my children all the time, and it helped that my work also gives me great satisfaction. I’m lucky to be able to experience the benefits (and sacrifices) of both. I hope your confidence in your decision helps other moms who might be struggling in a similar situation 😊

  5. Keysha January 26, 2018 at 9:28 pm #

    We recently moved from CT too! I also stay home and my twins are almost 3 and I often want to go back to work. We are and have always been on a schedule, that’s just what works for us and do play dates very often with lots of local moms. Sometimes it’s just tough and draining being with almost threenagers fighting and throwing tantrums all day long lol

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